Once again my talented therapist is surprising me with her insight and skillfulness. I’ve been having some repetitive thoughts and trying to make them stop only makes them worse. She ever so carefully steered me into how to get to the root of those thoughts without my awareness, with no pressure, and an ease that allowed for openness.
So here it is…her magical approach:
If a child in your care was having a tough time letting go of some feelings, how would you help that child move through it?
So simple. First I would listen to the child, because after all, every child wants to feel heard. I would then observe the child’s behavior to look for non-verbal communication. Children’s behavior is a such an enlightening form of expression and communication. Next, I would find activities or roles based on my observations that I could offer to empower the child and build on that child’s strengths, ultimately meeting the unmet needs.
Damn she’s good. She got me so focused on the child that popped into my mind that I forgot I was talking about myself! But here comes the tough part, right? Looking at myself as the child instead of the teacher…well, she put me in my secure role as educator and so I carried that feeling with me as I dove in.
So here I am sitting there thinking that I have to listen to my young self. And that child says nothing. She is silent and trying to make herself small, trying not to cause any trouble or unwanted tension. She wants someone to notice her, to listen to her. She wants someone to ask her what she thinks, and she wants to be listened to when she answers. She wants others to want her. She wants others to accept her. She wants others to feel comfortable with her. She wants to be seen for who she is becoming, and she wants to cheer on the others who are becoming…
Here I go…
- Writing my blog helps me feel heard and I love that others find inspiration in my words and thoughts. (Keep it up!)
- I’ll never be seen if I don’t let others have the opportunity to see me, so I am putting myself out there. (Be brave!)
- I will keep becoming myself, and accept who I am, since my own acceptance is of paramount importance.
- I will keep working toward being comfortable with myself and the comfort of others will come on it’s own (right?)
- And finally, I will begin to let go of the fear…fear of rejection, loss, fear that I will never again find the connections like those I’ve had in my life.
Wish me luck…it’ll be a process, a trial of sorts with some backslides and failures, but I’ll get there.