• Humorous
• Vulnerability
• Dependable
• Forgiving
• Fallible
• Ever changing
• Supportive
• Inspiring
• Challenging
• Honest
• Authentic
• Scary
• Transcending time, distance
• Imperfect
• Enduring
• Provocative
• Understanding
• Patient
• Tolerant
• Honest
• Surprising
• Trustworthy
• Reciprocal, though lopsided at times
• Emotional
• Loving
• Enlightening
• Adventurous
• Thoughtful
• Inconsistent
• A risk
• At times, brief
• Rare

Watching new show a million little things …we all hide our pain, and sometimes it’s the most seemingly easy going, happy people who are in the most pain…depression described using a plane crash metaphor…losing sight of the horizon…and subsequent nosedive…hopelessness and powerlessness hide just beneath the surface and we want it to be detected, but we do not want to be the one to shine the light on it…

My recovery “recipe” has included therapy, medication, and a shift in my priorities. I come first, and I never would have gotten to this point if not for friendship. When my best friend died, I shutdown that part of myself. It’s funny though, my long time friends, including my husband, have all been here for me, and I’m grateful. But sometimes it’s the new people you meet that wake you up, revive that part of yourself and make you feel again. To be seen and heard by someone new reminded me that I’m more, have something to offer, and rekindles a desire to think and learn and engage in my life again.

In my next post, I’ll reveal how my husband has dealt with some of this…spoiler alert…it’s pretty incredible.